je deteste (found poem, imessage history)

i pretty much have disdain for most things…

i hate my writing.
i hate tinder.
i hate these men.
i hate to be a cliche.
i hate being short at concerts.
i love that she hated dick.

do you hate this place? or do you think it’s cute? because i actually really love the bathroom.
it has to be in a neighbourhood i don’t hate.
oh and i HATE cups and dishes being left around.
yeah i hate messiness.
get me fucking out of here!!!! away from this hick town and away from those fucking kids next door. i hate them so much.

i hate myself! i hate this app!
i have some people who hate follow me and i’m sensing new frenemies.
somebody somewhere is always a hater.

he’s so annoying. always in everyone’s business.
he said he half hates me because i fucked him over pretty bad and i said okay.
he is healing but he hates the process of healing and he’s making it worse.

i have friends who hate that drugs make them reach out
to people they wouldn’t talk to otherwise
but for me, that’s the beauty of it.

i feel like she hates me :’( so i feel very angry and sad.
did she really hate me that fucking much?
i hate bargaining in the face of loss.
still no response… WHAT IF SHE HATES ME???

i hate putting my fingers in jars of cream.
that’s what people expect me to do,
but it’s just not me. in fact, i fucking hate it.
i strongly advise that you reconsider your approach in this interaction because i’d hate for this matter to escalate.

i hate being in a house full of white people. i hate how much asian women lust after white men.
do people like this exist? i hate instagram.

i hate my fucking life. i literally hate waking up. i hate this job.
i hate going out and socializing. i hate spending money.
i hate gender. i hate this world.
i hate their fries. i always get rings.
i hate customers i want to die.

i hate my sister.
i hate my mother. she said she hates our family because no one has her back.
i feel like she really hated me as a child.

i hate white people.
do white people think it’s hot to hate their mothers?
didion clearly fucking hated white girl feminists.
i hate that i wasn’t mature enough to understand what i was learning.

but there’s nothing i hate more than waiting in line at bambis.

oh and i hate writing. i’m not doing it anymore.